HI Kapt, there has been a lot happening with you. Firstly about your daughter-the fact you have a gambling disorder doesn’t mean she will ever develop one.
I think it was not just your choice to bring her there- there were two other adults who made this decision so try not to beat yourself up.. I don’t buy your husband’s reasoning about the next weekend.. However I think he was being kind and felt it was where you would like to go best. My husband would probably do the same, although I too hate the idea of my son ever gambling, so I get you completely .
I guess we need to remember that gambling isn’t such a big deal for people who do not have a gambling disorder..
I find there are a lot of downsides to management . Sometimes I ask is it worth it for the extra few quid, especially when I think of all I “wasted”!
Thank you for your post on my thread Kpat. I guess my experience has been that when I decided I was no longer going to allow people to label me or define me by a gambling disorder , it became a much smaller thing to deal with. It is no longer the giant it was which could overwhelm me.it is a tiny thing which I can squash down when I need to.
I think I got angry when I read the f and f forums .it seems to me that they happily chose to think that every fault became “typical” of a ,”cg”. Yet their own faults whether stealing or whatever, are only done because of their “my cg”! My perception.!
Most people on there only have experience of one person in their life with a gambling disorder
It has been helpful however in seeing how maybe I allowed others and their negative perceptions of me to become me.
I guess Im passionate about labels as I have experienced how throwing one off can change your life. It is not a matter of making a decision to throw it off it is something which takes time …and I’m not really sure how I made this shift..but it has been the most positive thing I have done in controlling this disorder.
I hope you are feeling better after you horrible task at work. It sounds like you managed it unbelievably well.
Stay strong my friend?