Hi Justletmeripon,
Much like you i tried to stay away a good few times. Self excluding myself from websites, leaving my cards at home, so on and so forth. You are going through all the same emotions as me 6 months ago, i hated myself for how much i had set myself back in life, after-all stuff like this doesn’t happen to me .. right ? Anyway, i dont use any other support network ohter than this website and im 6 months without a bet, have a little bit of savings and next month will be debt free. There is a resolution at the end of all this, venting is good, writing down your thoughts does help. Hopefully things will get much better very quickly for you as thy have for me.