Hi Jonny,
I loved reading your story. I can relate on so many scales – I also blame myself for having lost savings, and having lost every single paycheck I’ve earned. I know I will probably need help to get over that and to learn to stop blaming myself. Maybe you need the same? In almost every post of yours you blame yourself – you are doing so well! You are half a year gamble free. I just worry that dwelling on the fact you could be richer in life could possibly make you relapse, and I would hate to see that. Please don’t take offense to that, you are doing so well but by reading your story and seeing you blame yourself over and over again it worries me. I personally know that no matter how much time goes by I will always blame myself, therefore I am hoping I will get help to cope with that.
I am 27 days gamble free and am on the waiting list to go to gordon moody. Never been happier.
Stay strong and well done for getting your life back on track. Proud of you fellow ex-addict!
Take care,
MrExon