hi Jonny, well i got through today and i must admit i did a bit of pacing and trading words with the devil, i actually believe it to be like withdrawing from drugs without the physical pain that goes with it, it really tries to win control over you every time but the most important thing is i didn’t gamble. i try not to focus on day 1,2,3 so intensive and negatively as i did before but more of milestones. i am doing an extra shift tomorrow, up at 4am and a harsh reminder that my actions have consequences.
your negatives that you listed were all spot on, the list is really harsh to read but i can tick off everyone, gambling is such a lonely world when you sit back and look at yourself. everything is about placing a bet, results, money for more gambling and woe betide anything that obstructs that even if it is yourself.
you are right about investing in yourself, my health is start to deteriorate due to eating junk which i only do when i gamble and i lost out on a job recently due to putting more time into gambling than preparing for the role. Gambling gives you a temporary high but eventually it take your life from you until you become another statistic wether it be homeless, in prison, suicide, on benefits. its time the goverment faced up to it and stopped ramming it down our throats but i suppose all they care is the billions we give them each year….i wont be another statistic because of gambling!
