I love the “epic journal” comment! I believe we are all on an Epic Journey as I have found that being abstance from gamblingis much different than working recovery. I have found that the more I know why I did what I did the less likely I am to repeat it.
It’s very easy to transfer one addiction for a new one. I no longer “drink to get drunk”. I have seen too many folks come into GA meetings with many years in AA. Being a “dry drunk”-abstanence with out recovery-will lead us to other distructive behaviours.
I am far from perfect. Recovery can be a rollercoaster for sure. I like to think of myself as a student of life now. I will have 5 years in recovery come Feb. Hard to believe all thats happen in those years! Life on lifes terms is something I am always trying to embrace. The cosmos is Not out to get me! Talk about parinoid! The addictive mind is powerful for sure. Now knowing I can’t control People, places and things is very empowering. Surrender-that was such a hard consept to grasp-but surrender is freedom.
Well I could go on and on but it’s time for work.
Progress not perfection. ODAAT!
bettie
