Hi John Somebody, what an open and honest post. I am so glad you decided to give recovery another go. You describe how I felt less than six weeks ago and reading your post I realised that the awful thoughts about suicide are gone!! You have been in recovery before John and you know how quickly thinking becomes more positive. You are joining a community of people here who are genuinely interested in helping you on your journey into recovery. I think once in recovery the secret is to always continue post on here and remember you are never recovered..once a compulsive gambler always a compulsive gambler. But as you have learned life can be great when you are a compulsive gambler who doesn’t gamble.
If you can’t pay the debts John you can’t pay them. Get one of those debt charities to sort them out for you so you can pay back what you can. The sooner you do this the sooner you will have peace of mind!! They can’t get water out of a stone!!
You don’t say which type or types of gambling you are drawn to but as you know putting barriers in place will prevent you from gambling when the temptation gets too much for your willpower alone.
Someone once said to me : “there’s little in life that can’t be helped through talking”. So please check out the times of the support groups on here a join in the chats. Your past does not have to be your future. Staying gamble free will give you a great future!! I am looking forward to your be t post!!