Hi John. Hardest thing in the world losing your mum! It will just take time john.
Well done on earning and not losing! Takes A lot of self discipline to be self employed. Hope you enjoyed the time with your dad. Living with your dad might be a good idea. It would give you company . Important thing John is to stay gamble free and then you can make choices rather feel forced into things because of your financial situation. Visiting your son is great motivation to stay gamble free and to save. You have a lot going on in your life right now John! Keep strong
