Thank you for your support on my thread.. it is good to see that you are still trying and moving forward.. john i have relapsed a gazillion times over the last five years.. its ridiculous, but i kept coming back to here and to GA and saying i have relapsed, every single time, i would be honest.. because if there is no honesty what is the point of recovery.. there is no reovery then.. so i would fall down and get back up many many many times.. i think everyone including myself thought, there is no way she will ever ever get it.. i didnt believe i could do it.. i am starting to believe i can do it, but i have days i dont think i can.. the best thing for me is attending GA meetings. It is wonderful support, coming here, posting, chatting.. also delaying the urge. The urge comes, i acknowledge the urge.. then i wait, i will wait half hour, or an hour, do something else, get busy, and also let people know what i am thinking so the urge is not a secret, it seems to lose its power when its outed.. post here, read, eat, clean, fix something, watch a movie, walk, exercise, talk to someone, have a coffee, meet with someone, get on the phone, read a book, look online, learn something, shop, window shop, go for a drive, buy something you need, get petrol, groceries, pay bills even some in advance if you can.. these are just all suggestions, these are things that help me.. i understand how hard this addiction is to face some days.. it has been the biggest struggle.. but it can be done, there is hope…
if i can be gamble free right now with how impulsive and crazily frenzied i am as a gambler, anyone can..
I just want to say never give up.. never ever give up.. if you fall down, get back up.. i believe relapses teach us, pain teaches us.. keep moving forward if it takes ten times or a thousand times, you never know if the next time you try could be long term recovery.. never know what is just around the corner, i think its great your perseverance… i just want to say keep going
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