You could try self excluding from the bookies.
Gambling addiction messes with your head no two ways about it.
Nothing disastrous will happen if you dont get that next bet on Jim. Disasters galore are waiting if you do.
Accept the grand has gone mate, think yourself fortunate it wasn’t any more than that. It has gone though, its not there to be won back, the bookies have it its theirs not yours now.
Sorry to be so blunt and for stating the obvious but those are the facts Jim. Believe me mate you can live without gagging for the next bet however f*****ed up you might think you are.
It dosn’t happen quickly though but at the end of the day you know its a non-sense that you cant have in your life.
If its really causing you this much concern have you considered GA? Try ringing gamcare, or even GT there are people who can and will help. But you need to seek that help out mate.
You are not a looney mate, you have an addiction. It is proven everyday on here, at GA’s, at Gamcare you can not beat addiction on your own. Its not a sign of weakness to ask for help Jim, it takes a big man.
Take care
Geordie.