[I_Maverick]

Hi Jenny

Thanks for your post, it means a lot that people are out there. I am really struggling with the shame and the guilt. I had so many opportunities to stop last year and avoid the situation where I am. I didn’t hae to lose everything, but that seems to be my nature. I always hurt myself in one way or another as I have such low self esteem. I truly hate myself. Now I am not gambling it is even more clear to me what gambling has done to me. I never thought that something like gambling could be like this. Even now, I want to lose myself in it. To punish myself more.

I wish you a wonderful day.

best

Mav