Hi Jen , I hope you are feeling better . You sound so like me – I get so far, life is picking up, finances are a little better , I start to look forward and plan … and then I self destruct .
Now that I am one day four I feel I have it sussed and maybe I don’t need the residential place. It’s the way my brain works – I am thinking of several reason why I shouldn’t go , but like yourself , I have been on this merry- go- round so often that I know it is the addiction trying to deceive me.
Really well done on your determination to ge to meeting . They can’t do any harm and maybe they will do a lot of good .
Keep strong , keep battling my friend xx