Thanks for your post on my thread. I know what you mean. I lost,***** of the times I relapsed, once after 9 months abstinence after my first stint at Gamcare. I did hit rock bottom and got quite ill, was unemployed and about to lose my home. I had very little choice but to quit and I have never regretted it. There is no big win. Money became meaningless until I had none. I was 4 months in recovery but still very sick when I did the gma programme and had to opt out of some of that owing to being unwell. So,I have been through the wringer with gambling. It took everything including my soul. That’s how bad it was.
But, when we seek support and admit we are powerless over gambling and a higher power can restore us to sanity, for me very slowly, and it was slow, just so I really got the message, things began to change for the better. I am now one year and nearly four months clear. The big debts are still there but I am not broke, my relationships have improved, I value life, the money I have which will no longer feed the slot machines.
You are doing well Jen. Keep seeking support and make that decision, can you carry on the way you were? I could not if I wanted to live and recover a life. The addiction was progressive. It will,just take and take from us. Recovery is progressive to and led in me, at 61today, to a spiritual renewal. It is never too late to say yes to life and good choices.
