Hi Jen,
I’m happy to see you made it through the first week. For me, that was the worst part. Not the hardest – just the emotionally the worst part.
Hopefully the darkness of your relapse has faded by now and you’re feeling normal again.
I can relate to what you’re saying about being fooled by the addiction after having gamble free time. I sometimes try to convince myself, that since I have been able to control my urges and not gamble for this long, I should be able to gamble just a small amount and control that too. Nope.
We stop gambling because we cant gamble like other gamblers. The ONLY option for a compulsive gambler is to stop completely – there is no other way.
Good luck!