Hi Iwon
I know how it makes us feel when we gamble.
I know he horrible counting of money in our heads , the thinking about what the money could have bought , the reluctance to completely embrace beer gambling again, the debts building up and mind that’s can hardly decide between urges and regret .
This is so hard –
Give your self credit for both all the times you didn’t gamble, for your genuine and real efforts to stop and of course for your honesty – it is difficult to say I gambled again..
I realised myself that when I had gamble free time and I slipped , I wasn’t starting all over again – I was going forward with the lessons I had learned and each time I was a little stronger… and so it is with you .
You are not starting again you have just learned another lesson along the way.
Well done on coming here and writing with such honesty –
You help us all by doing so .
Keep strong .