Hi IDK,
I don’t have any understanding of the gambling you do but I do know that addiction stinks- it take over our thoughts and our time leaving is with little room for anything else .
Well done On seeking help.
Is there a blocker for this type of gambling ? Can u destroy credit cards or close accounts? Any barriers you can out in place to make it difficult to gamble will help to give you thinking time .
Well done on recognising that you have a problem and coming here and seeking help .
Try to find nice things to do instead of gambling .
I hope this helps and I hope you keep posting .