Thank you for commenting. I have wondered sometimes that if I won the lottery, would I be one of the sad stories of somebody who pissed it all away!… Surely with a significant amount of money we could make it work!!!! –wrong– The sad part of that statement is that I actually thought that about myself prior to accepting the fact that I had an issue. I always would have thoughts wondering if I had a problem, and then I would tuck it away, until the next time that I wondered if I had a problem. Admitting defeat is as difficult in recognizing yourself, as it is while we are playing machines or tables.
I don’t like to call the admitting to myself as a CG as a “defeat” because, I know there are a lot of people who continue to struggle, that may never get a grasp on what is going on. There is obviously people who consider suicide, or other very destructive avenues instead of dealing with this head on. And I say often, that I am really proud of the progress I have made. I could probably argue that I have made enough progress that I have a grasp and I can play again….But truly, I know I can’t. And that makes me sad. I did enjoy playing when I did, but it caused far more problems than solutions in my life, and frankly, the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result.
I hope this finds all of you well, and I hope my story can help at least one person today!
Johnny B