Hi IDI,
thanks for your post of the other day. I’m glad you are seeing yourself as deserving of the position. Something made you think you weren’t. Reverse that, whatever it takes.
I loved the way you put that above – “I guess I will never control it ‘gambling’ but I can stop it controlling me” !
It’s like our primeval brain is addicted and our educated thinking mind can outsmart that part of ourselves.
I can’t give back in to that. And I need to figure out what to do to build my barriers up higher. Thanks for sharing your experience. It makes us all think. It can happen to me too. It did before. I want to spend my money on living life not on a trance like state of attention. I’m glad you had your barriers built high. How much might you have blown? Pick yourself out a little treat and know it’s well deserved. xo
Laura