The big win is also one of my triggers but mostly when I hear of others big wins which I did on the train back from Hereford. But the massive win in six figures which this person had all went back and more to the usual destruction. So any win in folks with this addiction coming from the gambling route is still not a win because it always triggers off the beast which does it’s destructive thing. I really don’t believe in controlled gambling via any route. A lottery ticket in the past triggered me to a full blown relapse over a short period of time, not immediately butover a couple of weeks.
I just want to put gambling to bed and firmly in the past where it belongs. I have had a hard path to go down to really know this. Half this broken nation of ours are gambling and fuelling massive public health problems in the future.
I agree with you about the money thing, doesn’t bring happiness just a better quality misery. Being without it as I have is awful when you know what will help things but dont have the dosh to get it. And when you can’t even afford to leave the house, life becomes Groundhog Day.
Have a great haircut and I am glad you are feeling better. The 10pm groups have disappeared!