Hi i-did-it,
Great job on your progress so far, really well done. I can relate to the belittling comments. We have done a lot in the past years that we regret, but please know that our decision making was high jacked by our bad habit.
For some insight, my parents divorced when I was 6. My dad went on to re marry and basically moved on with his life and her kids, leaving me and my brother without a father. I attribute this to my negative subconscious thoughts about me not being good enough. While I do not say these things out loud, I do feel that way sometimes. These thoughts probably did not help me with gambling and most likely made it a form of escapism for me. I am currently changing my inner voice to a more positive version by conditioning my subconscious.
Anyways, please do not feel guilty about the past. Everything that we have done has been necessary to get to where we are now. We now have a ton of wisdom because of it, and the future has never looked brighter for us. You will break this bad habit, and you will become whatever you wish to become. Stay strong and keep up the awesome work.
–Nick