Hi Hopeful. You are very welcome and that was a great and honest opening post . You are right ! People can stop and do stop. I stopped!
I wish there was an instant solution. My stopping coincided with a major bully leaving my life. In fact I shut off all people who made me feel less good about myself and that included those who did it openly and those who did it under the guise of “helping”, “supporting” and “challenging” me. I never attended GA. I could imagine nothing worse for me . BUt I stopped and stayed stopped .
I Believe GM house will be exactly what you need . I hope you get a chance to move on from your unstable childhood and realise that you are as valuable as any other human on this planet . There is not a single person worth more than you .
YOu say you can’t hold on to money – well spend it . Spend it on you . What this did for me was it trained my brain to realise that I was worth spending money on and that money can be enjoyed in other ways. Buy yourself a nice meal or a new warm coat . Or even big thick snuggly socks . U will be no worse off than when you gamble it !
I have never been homeless and I can’t imagine how difficult it must be. I find myself wondering if you are replicating your childhood in a way when your home was taken from you because of your mothers illness .
I truly believe you will stop gambling . I predict you will go in to do great things and discover that life can be beautiful for you.
You deserve the very best in life . You have a lot to offer . You are for example a very good writer . Please believe that you deserve a home and a happy life .
Here’s a link I liked . It reminded me of your story a little .
http://m.cambridge-news.co.uk/quit-gambling-got-life/story-22751348-detail/story.html