Hi Hope
If your son chooses to read your thread then that is his choice – please write for you and you alone. He has been through the GMA programme but you have not had the benefit of that experience. The support he needs is available for him but this forum is a place for your recovery.
I won’t write much tonight as it is late and my bed is calling but I want to say that all CGs can read what is written here and sometimes it must make difficult reading for them but it is very important to remember that this forum is here for F&F, it is a place of safety where you can say the things that worry you without fear of retribution. It is how the addiction to gamble has affected you and nobody else that matters here. If you are strong then you can support your loved one better and this is the place to gain that strength.
I was concerned about mentioning the lull before the storm, especially when you had had a good weekend but I believe it is important to accept that they can still break and that it is therefore essential to have the right protection in place to keep out of the eye of the storm.
It’s great to hear you have booked a holiday – a time for you to get away and put all thoughts of addictive gambling to the back of your mind – I won’t say away because I know that will be almost impossible – I know you know what I mean.
Your son hopefully will use the tools he was given but if he chooses not to do so then he is making his choice. He can more forward or he can stick in the distorted world of gambling a bit longer – it is down to him but please don’t wait for him to make his choice before you take care of yourself. Make it your choice to be happy today.
Goodnight, sleep well
Velvet
