I have always wanted for you to change that name.. well done.. and well done on being honest, getting back on the wagon so to speak and continuing on.. you are worth it and i just know you can do this.. everyones journey is different and whatever works to stop you relapsing i hope you find… whatever way that is it doesnt matter so long as you stop.. it took me six years to stop relapsing and i dont know if its my last but i hope so.. with all my heart..
Im proud of you for your attitude.. for your determination. You are still a wonderful mother.. you are still a good person its just we have a crazy addiction that grabs hold.. use the same amount of effort in your recovery as you would to gamble.. you can do this my happy friend.. we are all with you
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