Hey thought I might post a little catch up as I have a late start today.
Still plugging along with the insulin pump. The nurse had me change some settings and my numbers have been all over the place. I sent her electronic log and hope to hear from her today.
Work is just work. They have managed to disqualify just enough of my sales to drop me .08% below 175%-which means my payout is cut almost in half. The boss is trying to get an exception made and reinstate some credit but it is what it is. This quarter is not going well. I am way behind-and the weather has not helped. My cobanker has been fortunate to have latched on to some good loans that walked through the door-which in the end makes me look bad. I have also had 2 weeks of vacation bumped due to a blackout by the new bank for training for conversion. To top things off we won some contest at work and they changed from going out after work Saturday to Friday without asking me. When it was first planned I told them it was not possible for me to eat dinner after 8pm which is why it was planned for Saturday. Somehow no one seemed to remember that when they changed it. The boss asked me if I could just come and have drinks. Really? Well maybe if I wanted to risk dying in my sleep I could give it a go but I guess I will pass. I am feeling very left out. It is very depressing getting adjusted to my “new normal”. Frankly I feel very unnormal if that is even a word. I fought going on the pump therapy about 8 years ago and now here I am. I feel very limited and handicaped. I know this will pass with time but this feeling is awful.
On a lighter note I am gamble free but the thoughts do pop up from time to time. I just remind myself it would solve nothing amd make matters worse and I move on.
I wish the snow would stop-I am quite tired of winter.
Time to get ready for work. I will be there late tonight for call night-my panic attack has already kicked in and I keep telling myself that I make a bigger deal about it than it is.
bettie
