Hi geordie thanks for the detailed reply. I appreciate it.
Unfortunately since my last post things got even worse unbelievably, ive reached an even lower rock bottom. I went 8 days without gambling.
But that all came crashing down again, i took out another loan which stupid interest rates because my credit score is so poor now. And ye you guessed it i lost everything within the space of 24hours, another £3000. Also most of last months wages.
Its hard to comprehend how powerful this addiction is, and for people who dont suffer from it to understand how someone can be so selfish and heartless to themselves and those around them.
I desperately dont want to give into this and let it ruin my life but i cant kid myself, thats how it feels right now. The losses are so great now for me personally that its hard to even comprehend.
I am looking into GA meetings, and have spoke to my mum about it. She was understandably angry and upset. She cant help me financially but is doing all she can to help me get through this and for that im grateful.
I try again from today