Hi Geordie,
My mum won’t be coming in the end, as they won’t let her in! I’m not surprised, nor would I! Just kidding. She wanted to be at rest by knowing where I would be and what it would be like, but I know the system isn’t set up for parents, it’s set up for gambling addicts, and it is what it is. I think it’s better that way, but I know she will be panicing. My brother left to join the British Army at 16 and I know how hard it was for her. She still struggles when he comes and goes now, 7 years on! I have been very fortunate I have to say, and I thank GM so much for the opportunity. I think my mum was very worried after this weekend, and so was I, and her emailing Amy certainly seemed to have sped up the procedure.
5 weeks os 5 weeks, I’ve been waiting for 8 so 5 is only a portion of that. I have lots of things to look forward to between now and then – my brother is coming out on Saturday for a few weeks, Fiesta week starts this Saturday, I have 2 cricket matches on the weekend, my gran, uncle, and aunt are coming out just before I go back, so there’s lots to do and no time to gamble!
I’m happy that so many people are supporting me, it feels great, and I realise that I should be proud of myself. It’s been a hard couple of months, but nobody said it would be easy. It’s been the worst period of my life to say the least, but it’s an investment. It’s an investment inmyself, in my future, in my life. I’m putting in the grind now, so that later I can relax and live a gamble free life. I have so many plans for the future. Plans, I never had plans when I used to gamble. My plan was where I was going to get my next bunch of cash from to go and gamble with. I want to go on holiday next year with my friends, I want to start up my own business plan, I want to keep fit, start boxing. I want to be happy. I want live life. I want to me gamble free.
I hopefully will be able to visit Essex after GM, who knows, but I know that now it’s not convenient to go back, so it will have to wait. I know and accept that.
I know that i’m likely to have more shit days between now GM, but that’s life. I will get over the bumps, and I will be a stronger person because of it. I WILL stay gamble free, I WILL go to GH, and I WILL come out of it the person I once was.
Enjoy your sandwiches you cheeky bugger!
Take care, and stay gamble free mate!
MrExon