Hi Eric,
A couple of points spring immediately to mind.
First of all stop researching those football picks. You are just teasing your addiction and making things difficult for yourself. If you are a sports fan then enjoy watching your football. If you can’t then maybe you aren’t so much a fan as just someone who likes to gamble on it?
The second point is that the amounts you are contemplating gambling tell me that you have too much easy access to money. How can you limit that access? How can you make yourself accountable?
A final point would be that you realise youself that you are an addict. In the unlikely event that you won that 50k back would an addict really stop then? You have found yourself in a financial hole, when in a hole the best advice is to stop digging.
Keep posting.