Hi Eli,
It is a shame you didn’t keep your original thread going. You had all the advice there and the steps that you could take to make your next bet less likely.
Hiding from your problems won’t solve them, in fact it will likely make things worse.
You have a lot of support available to you. If you want to talk to other compulsive gamblers then you can in the groups here, at Gamblers Anonymous zoom meetings, plus many other sites available to you.
Maybe revisit your old thread, look at the steps you didn’t think you needed to take and then start putting the positive things in place. Hopefully see you in a group later.