Hi Eileen, I’m glad you have decided to take the leap and post, not easy I know!
I always believed I sabotaged myself over and over……reality was that I have an addiction and like any sickness I have to take my medicine. This forum is my medicine, exclusion is my medicine, reaching out for help is my medicine.
I wanted to talk to you about exclusion. Yes, it’s embarrassing, people KNOW, I was scared to death to do it but I knew if I didn’t then my life was over. I was dying of this addiction. So, I did it. I enquired on what I needed to do and just did it and while exclusion isn’t for everyone it is definitely for me. It was instant relief and in 5 1/2 years I have had 1 slip up, in between excluding! It’s worth considering, it changed my life.
You don’t have to think long term in fighting this addiction, just today, just this hour, just this minute if you have to. Don’t worry about what might happen in a month, just get through the now.
Im not sure what a biweekly loan is….doesn’t sound too good though, does your husband know about your gambling?
Eileen, you should be proud that you have started a thread here, it’s a big step. Please use the helpline and forum as much as you need, I used to write down every thought in my head. You will get so much support. I hope to hear more from you. Welcome , it’s not an easy road we walk but we walk it together and pick each other up when we stumble.
Love, K x
