Hi Eileen,
Sundays, I found was a trigger day for me too. The freeplay was a trigger as well. I tried throwing them in the trash without looking, but I usually dug them out anyway! Then, we asked our kids to get the mail and toss anything out that came from the casino, but they were unreliable. I marked the emails as spam, but then I would check the spam folder. Since you are trying to do this without excluding, I thought I would mention these things as it did help sometimes. I went on and on this way for years. I think it can be done, it’s just I did not have the willpower on my own. Until I excluded, the longest I ever went is about two months. Today is two months since I excluded. I no longer get mail or email from the casino. Noone knows we did this except my family and a few choice friends. So far, it hasn’t come up at work as a destination for a party or event.
If that should happen, I think I willclaim a stomach bug or something! Lol
Actually quitting made my emotions very labile for the first month, but they seem to be evening out now. I still have urges and still want to go, but that ban was the best thing I have done to help me quit. I wish you all the best and prayers for your recovery.
