Hi Ed
I was drawn to your thread a year ago by your username. I was probably wrong but I sensed a challenge and not a submission. I knew that CGs could control their addiction and those who love them could refuse to allow the addiction to bring them down but on the other hand I also knew the courage it would take to control that addiction especially the fear of letting go. How glad I am that you did not submit but fought a battle royal against the forces that would have brought you down.
It is great that there are informative programmes that tell you how your mind is wired because it will help you defeat those who would seek to overturn your resolve. You are different and for me that is something that can make life more exciting – if you allow it.
You have got an amazing wife – it is always good to hear about someone who loves a CG but has come through and is living a life without the shadow of the addiction hanging over them. I would imagine there were many times when she doubted your love for her. Some time ago an F&F member put this on the forum
• Forgiveness isn’t condoning the behaviour.
• Forgiveness isn’t forgetting what happened.
• Forgiveness isn’t restoring trust.
• Forgiveness isn’t synonymous with reconciliation.
• Forgiveness doesn’t mean doing the other person a favour.
• Forgiveness isn’t easy.
Both of you have shown courage in the last year and the fight goes on as you know. I am so glad you know the forum is here for you and especially delighted that your posts give hope to so many.
I doubt I ever miss your returns to the forum and each and every post has left me smiling.
Thank you
V