Hi idi.
I loved the analogy of an iceberg. This is so true. All of the things I knew were issues for me me mentally when I was gambling have transferred themselves into emotions and feelings now i am in early doors recovery. They are similar, although not the same, to your own. And I avoided dealing with these for the years I was gambling. As someone who spent most of their life at work, I now have time on my hands and I am doing much the same as yourself. I had a lot of money pre gambling which gave me choices but did not bring happiness. I now have no money and still unhappy. So maybe I am just a miserable so and so. If granted recovery I like to think I would be so much wiser. But like you idi I am an island with people making very brief visits. Any major change needs to be thought through and we need to be stronger in our recovery and journey back to ourselves before we go ahead. I am facing the same issue but can’t do anything when skint. Also, like you I cannot believe the way my life turned out. It has been one hard journey and I pray that we are granted recovery time and time to find the happiness and fulfilment that has been so elusive in this life. We bloody deserve it! Nothing less will suffice….
