Hi Delie..
The first step is admitting you have a problem. That is an accomplishment in itself. I am pretty new to this site as well but I have experienced the same feelings. I am also in my 20s.. It’s a struggle trying to deal with this as well as trying to get a life established.
There have been many times where I have gone to the casino, lost.. Then the next week after I get paid I go and win… But yes you’re right it’s not a win because you’re just getting back what you’ve spent. For me it’s what I spent… It owing the credit card payment that I took out for a cash advance just to stay and gamble longer. So for us it is never a win and I don’t think it ever will be. A win for us is to stay away from gambling. Each day I have to think of it as a win because if I don’t then I will think I am not getting anywhere.
Keep posting! I would love to keep in touch with you and how you are doing.
Take care,
Jessica