Hi Danny and welcome to the forum.
Well done on your 2 months gamble free time. have you been using support to get to this point? As you can see from the other stories here you aren’t alone with this problem so you don’t have to deal with it on your own either.
I hope reading the other stories here helps. Maybe check out your local GA meeting as well, then you would have a lot of people you could talk to about your recovery.
Apologies if you didn’t want advice but I felt that a good honest post deserved a response.