Hi Daniel, well doen on recognizing the problem.
You have already got some great advice. It is a gambling addiction; your addiction found it’s “drug of choice” in the markets.
You can get passed this in the same way that any otehr gamblign addict can – by using support. Keep reading and posting here. Look at the other support you have available, places like Gamblers Anonymous etc.
Keep posting and let us know the positive steps that you are taking.