Hi.. I know what you mean about the short memory about gambling, the pain begins to fade, the torture that we feel and one day it just seems like it really wasn’t eve that bad.
The good thing is you are aware that is what happens too. It happens to me too. As horrendous as things get i forget the pain, i can remember it but no feeling attached to it.
Once i start i cannot stop so the point is not to start, sounds so simple right.. if it were i would have stopped when is started trying back in 09. The point is not to give up though. Keep trying and remember there will be no, just this once, just this amount etc.. if we lose we chase it, if we win we lose it!
Pea