Hi Charslter,
It sounds like you are doing ok. Im really please for you> I just had a meltdown last night that came out of the blue. Even now I am a little numb. For some reason I logged onto a casino site and started playing BlackJack. At one point I was massively up and I said to myself “Prove your not a CG and cashout now and go to bed and no one needs to know”. That didb’t happen. I cannot for the life of me understand why I didn’t cash out and chill, and spend my money on something nice. God knows I could have done iwth it. Instead I lost it all and then started depositing on my company card again. The full story is on my post. I just don’t know what happened. I at once poit I had despoited 4300 and I was down to the last 800 or so. And then it turned around and I cashed out exactly what I put in – and then I was caught.
Stay away from the gamble mate, don’t do it to yourself. My wife now wants me to leave the house – even though I;ve not hurt anyone. I have to be honest, I cannot see the problem – no money was lost. But that’s not the point is it. I need help seeing the hurt I have caused.
I need to get on the GMA course so badly – I hope we are there together. I dread to think what would have happened if I couldn’t win back my losses. I went into full on loss chasing mode, totally insane. I think I went mad last night, totally mad.
Charlester, you can do it fella. I have so little urge to gamble right now, I am all gambled out.
See you soon
Mav