Hi Charlster, I have just caught up on your thread. I think I missed out on it because you started it just as I started a relapse!
Your thread is very powerful. I was pleased to read about your landlord treating you to lasagne .. It’s nice that there are some kind people out there.. I feel such immense shame about this addiction. Maybe I don’t give people the opportunity to be kind.
I read with interest about why you are not attending GA. snap!!
I live in a similar place . If I was seen in a casino i would be seen having a night out… If I was seen at GA ,I would become a person who could kiss goodbye to my Career..after trying to explain this so many times, I was relieved to see someone else who had a similar dilemma!
I hope you are feeling upbeat and looking forward to your residential treatment and a whole new life