Hi Charlster
I don’t find your bucket list too long or too much to strive for. I think it is an admirable list for someone determining to take control of his life.
I think journals are a splendid way to get things that are swirling around in your brain into some sort of order.
You will always be able to read about lapses in the forum because it is a forum for those who are trying to change their lives and change is not easy but lapses are NOT compulsory, they are not a rite of passage. I have a friend who has 19 gamble-free years behind him and is living a life that encapsulates everything on your wish list and he is definitely not alone.
I have no doubt that you can achieve everything on your list provided you want it enough. I really do know that it is tough but I believe you are doing to best thing for yourself by posting on here having been accepted by GMA.
I’m glad you care about what happens to you because I do too and I hope you will keep posting when you have been through the programme so that I can know when you want to smile more.
Velvet
