I think thats one of the hardest things about recovery-waiting for the good things. I know in my case I just assumed that when I came into recovery that my life would somehow just be better on all fronts. It was that unrealistic expection that lead to my “slip” after 16 months. I believe that was building up for a long time-I kept waiting for this “better” life and while somethings did improve it just wasn’t what I had expected.
I think I have readjusted my thinking over the last 18 months-I no longer wait for my night in shining armour to rescue me and am a bit more greatful for the little things. I’m not saying this is you-my gosh you have been though major change for sure-but Rome wasn’t built in a day. Try not to get discouraged that things are’t going according to schedule. God has His own schedule and timeline for us somehow. We just have to be patient until it all falls into place. Just remember gambling only adds to the complications and solves nothing.
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