God has not forsaken you. I went through all of that as the one of the causes and also the effect of my gambling ie a loss of faith. We need to pray and surrender to our higher power and it does help us over time. I will pray for you. You work situation sounds intolerable. Acceptance of our situation as it is is important and then we can make a plan to change it. Gambling and the losses keeps us stuck in a downward spiral and women problem gamblers tend to have a bad habit of turning their anger about situations inward and self harming through gambling. Can u get counselling anywhere? You need help to express how u feel and work through those feelings of anger, frustration and pain.
