Sorry to hear of your relapse BU.
Don’t beat yourself up, that’s counterproductive. You’ll no doubt feel that you’ve let yourself down and maybe even have doubts in your mind as to whether you can abstain from gambling. This is the time you need to bounce back and push even harder than before to get to where you want to be. I’m sure you know that anyway.
Gambling wants to get the better of us and will try and grind us down until we submit and it wont be happy until it’s taken all it get from us and totally consumed every last part of us.
Day two gambling free puts you in a far better place than waking up this morning knowing that you gambled last night so put a positive spin on your situation. Don’t be bogged down by what you’ve just lost either, the important thing here is to not lose any more. You need to grab every chink of positivity from your situation and if you clear away the negativity you’ll find those positive chinks to cling to.
I used to talk to myself every time I gambled. A major part of my brain was telling me not to gamble, it gave me every conceivable reason why I shouldn’t, yet the tiny part of my brain that was telling me that I could win everything back that I ever lost and much much more always won the day. As CG’s, when we’re in gambling mode we never listen to logic, if we did we wouldn’t have an addiction would we! So again, don’t be too hard on yourself.
We’re all with you as you know and we’ve all experienced what you’re experiencing, so stay strong, take stock and go again. You know you can do this.
Take care,
Charlster.