Hi Beth
I am wondering if, although he gambled $500, seemingly without batting an eye, whether he then lost that $500 in which case his belief in his ability to control himself will hopefully have taken another knock.
Your husband accepted he has an alcoholic addiction 3 years ago but it now appears that he has sleep walked into another addiction. This is not an unknown situation on this site and will not be an unknown situation for others in your husband’s AA group, maybe you could ask him to discuss your concerns with his fellow members – even if he will not admit to himself, or them, that he is concerned. The fact that he intellectually accepts that his gambling is addictive gives rise to hope. He probably fought against accepting his alcoholism for some time before he was ready to face it and take the necessary steps to control it.
If it was easy for a person to accept an addiction and deal with it Beth, I wouldn’t he here. I suspect your husband understands more than you think but understanding and doing something about it takes strength and maybe your husband lacks that strength ‘at the moment’.
I can feel your loneliness and I really do understand. I hope you will keep posting and hopefully between the lines you will find the strength to keep your family, not just afloat but sailing towards calmer waters.
I am relieved that you have friends and family who are supportive towards you – are they aware of your concern?
Fear of the unknown is crippling, please keep looking after yourself and doing things and seeing people that please you.
Please keep posting
Velvet
