I hope you are well today, it’s hard thinking of the past and what could have been. That’s why I love the serenity prayer in GA. God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.
I think a few months after stopping gambling our minds are processing, when we gambled, we suppressed all the feelings. Later everything rises to the surface and kind of gets jumbled around for a while, well it did for me. It took some time to see clearer. Life has its ups and downs without gambling, but it’s different. Not having the nagging obsession helps life a lot more. Wishing you well Angie. Just for this day don’t gamble, your past is gone. Today is here I hope it’s a good day for you, if it’s not that’s ok it will get better, the bad days are temporary as is the gambling urges… Keep going you are doing great
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