Hi Alli, it was good to talk to you yesterday.
Lizbeth is right, you are not a bad person, you are an addict like the rest of us. The good news though is now that you know that you can do something about it.
I would agree with what you say – right now all you have to do is to focus on stopping gambling. When you have done that you will be better placed to address anything else that needs addressing. Keep posting and let us know what positive steps you are taking. Hopefully see you in a group again soon.