HI ALL thanks for the messages in my absence. I do read them all!!! even though I am terrible sometimes at replying. Im back now from Denmark. The trip was too good. I relaxed like I have not been able to in months. Would wake up, drink coffee. Surf rubbish on the internet then get ready and go meet my son in the shopping center when he finished school which is between 1 and 2pm in Denmark.
Ate too much food and drank more than 1 carlsberg lager but it was good. I somehow had the money to give my son around £160 quid xmas money. He put it towards a PS4 he bought. I then got conned ha ha into buying a PS4 Game for £50 !!!!
But I remember as I got my debit card out thinking can i should i …. how so many times I dont think twice about depositing that amount and more in the casino. It was a great feeling. Came back almost broke but for the right reasons. My rent has hit the wall but think I can pay her next week if she dont throw me out before. I hope not. Im not good at facing people at the moment and especially not my landlady maybe becuase she has been so good to me. So patient. But there is only so much a person can do in the patience stakes. I will pen her an email tonight and let her know when she is going to get paid.
Came to my fathers for the weekend with a view to living here for a short time. But dont think I can. I am not sure yet. He has aged these past 4 months since mum made her exit. He has health issues and is frail. I worry about him. He seems to have lost some of his will to live since loosing his wife of over 50 years. That is the hard part.
On the flip side im ready for this year. Need to get capital built up and restart. ….. its good to see people here so determined. It gives me hope for the future. And yes Vera I have been here a few months now. Things are slowly changing in microbytes. But nevertheless still changing. Onwards ….