Hi again Jay,
Did you look at any of those links? Did you get to that GA meeting?
You can stop gambling I promise you, whatever your problems you can get past them and move forward in life.
To do that though it’ll be important that you use the support that you have available and take some positive steps.
There is a lot of life after gambling as many people will tell you.
As well as support for stopping gambling I would suggest that if you have any further thoughts of suicide you take a look at this link as well.
How about asking that casino to ban you?