Hi Adam and welcome to the forum. Losses drive us mad. So then we chase them and chase them hard. Most often losing more. It’s hard to wipe the slate clean and let the losses go. I always tried to consider it a very expensive lesson. One that taught me that I am addicted to gambling. I’m sure coke addicts or alcoholics want the money back they blew on drugs and alcohol. Not to mention stupid decisions and lost jobs. I’m sure they go through period of denial where all they want is more of what they are addicted to. It is really tough to face this. But if you can, face it, you will come out the other side much stronger. When the cravings and urges kick in our will power can often weaken. Especially in the beginning when that is all we can think of and our brain is looking for its kicks! It is like we have to use the part of our brain that KNOWS this is insane to outsmart the gambling addicted brain. I’m hoping someone from the UK can jump in and tell you about banning yourself from online sites and installing blocking software on your electronics. By doing these things we can get through a weak moment and be prevented from making a mistake. It gives us more time to reason with our self about the likely outcome. We are addicted to the rush, not the winnings. So when there is no winnings we keep going with our money just to try and feel that rush. Your life is not over but please take this seriously. If you can access some addictions counselling that may also be of big benefit. I also attended GA meetings. A lot in the beginning. You have the gift of time. You can make this a faded memory. Keep connected here. It helps.
Laura
