I was reading through your posts and I surely get the polarization of the good vs. self destructive. I’m thinking the qi gong is great in that respect and others. Integration, healing, centering, circulating energy, gathering energy, replenishing, transforming and radiating outwards from the core with love. It’s a completely different diagram or paradigm than polarised linear thinking ie. good bad, acheivement, inertia etc. etc. light , dark. hmmm. ? What do you think/ feel? I appreciate your sharing very much. Reiki and some qi gong and yoga work this way for me. I look for support and resources. I write. I feel. I suffer too and I try to let go and let ‘god’ or higher power/ like the qi gong light energy, help me in ways that words can not really express. It’s not easy but it’s worth it, right? odaat bonnie