Hi
Taking notice of where a repeated behaviour got you and then determining to do something different, that you now ‘know’ will improve your life, is that precious commodity called experience.
You have now added to your wealth of experience an ‘almost two year’ gamble-free time, so now you can look at the why this relapse occurred and add it to your stock of tools for controlling your addiction. Such knowledge cannot be taught.
Is the ghastly boss a permanent fixture? Is there anything you can do about him – I appreciate that bullying is often very hard to complain about but it is horrible and you should not have to tolerate it?
You are not crazy, you are not hopeless, keep posting as you did before and use this latest experience as a launch pad for a better life. You will not be back to square one, nearly two years gamble-free c o u n t s for a lot, ‘you’ did it and you can do it again. I look forward to hearing your progress
Velvet