Hey Monica, glad today is a little more positive day for you. And hope your health is going to take a turn for the better for your.
Please don’t take this as meant in a mean spirit. You’ve said certain things as well before. About the right job, the right food, the right restaurants. I can understand that you can’t make yourself conform to some nameless duplicated society useless job for long term. For some it is just soul sucking. No other way to describe it. But if the choice is between starvation or humbling one’s self by working “beneath their standards” for a year it seems like a lot of snobbery not to.
I was taught that a real woman got the job done no matter what it took and sometimes you don’t like the job.
Sometimes when you fall it really hurts but you are more than your job title and you never know when or how an opportunity will present itself.
You have probably been too ill to hold down too strenuous of a job up until this point anyway but as you feel better I hope you broaden your work search unless you have some secret funds. You can still search for the dream job but in the mean time you need to live on more than your current grocery budget. There are a lot of people who would love to lay claim to your resume (and all the hard work and effort that went into it). Use it to move your life forward.
I know you will find your way through the challenges. One at a time. Thinking positive and want to believe that someday you will look back from a new and different life and be amazed at how you got there. Take care ,
Laura